My Heart, in words...
I'll start with a quote. "We can reject everything else: religion, ideology, all received wisdom. But we cannot escape the necessity of love and compassion." - the Dalai Lama
I don't know, I guess I've just never been the same as everyone else. Not to mean that I'm Spiderman or something, I just don't like being the same as everybody else and I think that that shows. Let me explain...
I'm a great guy. Not to sound to overly confident or egotistical, but it's the truth. I don't use or exploit people, I am a giver more than a taker, I have a big heart, and I try to treat people as I would like to be treated.
Lately I've been kind of forcing myself to grow up, but it's been for the best. It turns out that I love to read books. Not books like Dear Mr. Henshaw (not that Dear Mr. Henshaw isn't a fantastic book), but more along the lines of essays; things that make you think; ask questions. I just finished reading a book called Blink. It's by Malcolm Gladwell and it's all about the functioning of the subconscious mind. Stellar.
I am lucky to have traveled as much as I have (24 states, 10 countries). There is something about seeing the world that changes the one around you.
My family means everything to me. They give me what they have and I to them. There have been bumps along the way, but in the end I love them and I know that they love me.
I have played guitar for about 6 years now. The singing thing started off TERRIBLE, but it's starting to come around. I play a lot of little shows from time to time, but mainly I just play at people's bonfires. I write music. It's not great, but oh well. It's getting better and improvement is all you can really ask for. As for my musical future, I haven't yet decided what I want. I don't think that I want it to be my profession, but who knows, I might be in the right place at the right time. I have to admit, that would be pretty cool :)
Severe depression runs in my family. Not looking forward to that...
"Love" and "Faith" should be excluded from the dictionary. They transcend it.
I've found that whenever life looks like it can't get worse, it can and usually does... BUT then it does get better, so hold on.
I got a 1790 on my SATs. Not that you care, and not that I care. I stated a fact just now. You perceived that as boasting I would presume, but it wasn't. But I am proud of that and I was boasting.
If you are looking for something in your life just know that you are not alone. We all are.
My dream is to meet the most amazing girl in the world: smart, beautiful, funny, and hopefully she'll know that I am perfect for her, but maybe that is too much to ask for.
I am pretty calm unless you set me off... then I blow up... seriously.
Sometimes when I've been sitting in one spot for too long i get a feeling like i'm hovering up and floating, but then i look down and I feel cemented down again. It's probably a problem with my equillibrium or something, but it's kinda cool so you know, whatev.
This used to be a LOT longer, but I changed and it did with me.
I believe that getting over your fears is one of the most powerful and best things that you can do for yourself. My next fear that I need to conquer is confrontation. Oh boy that's a tough one.
I know that things in life happen for a reason and that everyone loves to say "I don't regret anything," but that's not true. Everyone needs to stop lying to themselves. Sure I wish that I had no regrets, but I do. The best thing that you can do though is to try and do things that you won't regret, but hey, we're only human.
I try to be a positive, kind, forgiving person at all times, but nobody is perfect. It's hard to find a happy medium between being cold-hearted and over forgiving. On one hand, you're disobeying God by turning away and not granting forgiveness, as He gives us. On the other hand though, if you forgive and forgive over and over again, people will take advantage of you... but maybe that's the point... hmmm.... deep.
About 2 year agos I realized that I wasn't who I wanted to be. Since then, I've cleaned up my life, lost 75 pounds, and tried to gain as much knowledge as I have been able to. The philosopher Plato was not just a nerd. "Plato" was actually a nickname meaning broad-shouldered. Not only did he try and gain knowledge through intellectual conversation, but he weight trained. He didn't let the fact that he was born into one of the richest families in all of Greece stop him from getting better. On that note, it's your life, be who you want to be, talk to who you want to talk to, but most of all, love who you want to love, because life is a blessing and you can only ruin it for yourself. If school is really that bad, stop going. If your parents are really that mean, move out. Life is too short and precious to whine about it. It can always be worse. ALWAYS. Life is what you make it. Be the best that you can be.
I believe that there are a few things in life that can make all of the worries and troubles in your life disappear. Poof! gone... (sadly only temporarily)... For example (these are mine):
1)my dog
2)one of those books that you keep promising yourself that you'll only read one more page because it's 1:19 AM and if you don't go to bed at that instant you'll be sleepy the next day at school but you press on and finally pass out with the book in hand; your thumb dividing pages WAY past where you had sworn to yourself they would be
3)Angels & Airwaves music
4)Lance Ladrow
5)concerts
6)and last but DEFINITELY not least, a beautiful girl who when she smiles, you wish that you could steal Adam Sandler's remote from that lameass movie, press pause, get a lawn chair and maybe some Junior Mints and just watch it for days... not that I have a particular girl in mind or anything...
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